tryin' out the pool

Two years ago yesterday....

A Hole in My Heart

A mother I had dreamed to be
God allowed tragedy for me

I hoped that this day would bring joy
Perhaps a small girl or a boy

My loss was certainly Heaven's gain
But that does not lessen the great pain

What cruel twist has been sent my way
Is there some reason that I must pay?

For God knows best we always say
No sum of money I can pay

Impossible to return that gift to me
I do know that God is and will always be

I journey forward and with hope
For without this I could not cope

I understand more clearly now
And I with deep reverence bow

For God willingly gave His Son for me
That I might forever with Him be

No malice within me you will find
How can I remove this from my mind?

That glorious day when Him I see
Will my little one run to me?

Baby Baker: Due May 27, 2009
by: Regina Baker

I named her Hannah. I still think about her quite a bit - wonder if Grandma Collingsworth is holding her? At least it is neat to think about.

Isn't He good?

so I went kaboom on the sidewalk tonight----ouch! Thankfully God was watching over me, and Rylee escaped injury except for a small red spot which i don't think was even from the fall - my knee took the brunt of it. After the initial scare of making sure Rylee was okay, I realized it could have been much worse! Thank You God for watching over us.

The grass and sidewalk were very wet and my foot slipped. My knee caught us and I was able to keep good hold of Rylee on the way down. I kept checking her head throughout the evening to look for any redness or knots, because I was unsure if she had hit the sidewalk or not - she cried a lot but I believe it just scared her because I was scared and crying. I did find one small red spot on top of her head which must be from when she was playing at church tonight and hit her head on the pew because it would have been the back of her head that hit the ground.

Crazy stuff! If you think of it, pray for us as we are in the process of trying to get a loan for our house. All these issues keep popping up that the bank needs resolved and some of them seem kinda impossible but we have a God whose vocabulary doesn't contain the word "impossible" so I am just trying to have faith that it will all work out.

all done!

rylee felt the need to crawl onto the quilt and pose while i was taking the picture - too bad she doesn't do cute things like this when i am taking pics of her!!

My Second Mother's Day!

Baby's quilt is finished and actually in the washer right now. Time to start a queen sized one for Rylee's new room (that is, if we ever move...sigh. )

Playing outside with mommy!

unposed shot - she hugged on her monkey by herself!

cutie!