Wednesday, September 01, 2010

Any tricks?

Okay, you 'experienced' folks out there! Give me some good tips for being 'content' no matter 'what state I am in.' Lately it's been really tough to be 'happy.' Life is zooming by while I wait on the platform to get on the next time it slows down enough to hop on and find a seat.

I know one thing that causes me some 'huffiness' is when folks ask "Will Regi be coming?" to any function during the day? One way to really get me going is to say that I don't do anything or that I am lazy. But then sometimes I wish I could go to those functions during the day, to have all the time in the world to attend each and every little thing, hold Rylee for hours on end, quilt as long as I wish and have a maid to wait on me...but that's not the world I live in.

I was reading Job this morning and pretty much no one has it worse than he did. So in comparison, I have nothing to be complaining about, but I also don't have much 'joy' either. Then again, I can't say Job was very full of 'joy' either. Nice friends he had too. Which is worse? No friends or friends like his? I mean they at least tried...sorta. I do have a great best friend who also happens to be married to me (yeah, i planned it that way) but even he isn't superman.

I am pretty sure the evil villain is trying to weed his way into my life - the nice thing is that I am aware of it. Now to find all those underground tunnels and blow 'em up before he gets inside the house. Prayer and Bible reading are pretty good dynamite when used together.

So I guess I can't say "i have learned in whatever state I am to be content" but rather I could say "I am attempting to learn..."


Heidi said...

I think you are off to a good start. Admitting it and realizing the devil is doing his best to get you off course is the best place to start. I often have the same problem. I work many hours a week and often feel like "life" will hopefully be starting just around the corner. Then my dear hubby reminds me to "live in the moment" as this is the only life I am going to get. Yes, my circumstances may change, but I am not guaranteed any future moments, so I had better make the best of the ones I have. I'm trying, but I definitely haven't arrived either. I am sure it's even worse with a little one, because you think of all the moments you are missing with her when you are working. When we finally are able to go get our kids, I think I will still have to work some and I am already dreading it. It hasn't happened yet, and here I am worrying about it already. I'm not sure that I was much help, but just know you are not alone!

Anonymous said...

Is it possible you have some postpartum depression? A busy life can seem absolutely overwhelming when the hormones are out of whack.
And, take heart, we ALL have to learn to be content. Sometimes it's easier than others, but I think that is a universal problem and you are not alone. Keep truckin' on!

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Anonymous said...

I Know how you are feeling. Up until about 2 months ago, I felt like the whole world was caving in on me. I felt deep despair, that there was no way out. Hang in ther honey. Somtimes people say things that hurt, but remember you want to be the best mommy and wife first, then everyone or everything else. You are a good mommy from what I can tell, and Jay obviously adores you.
Suzanne Caplinger