I have been feeling very 'blah' lately. Love being a mommy, but seems there is not time to stop and enjoy things - it just flies right past. So in an effort to get to enjoy it, I try to keep up. The nursery is nearly done but I can't believe she is already 4 months and her room isn't even done yet. Sorta depressing. There is not much left to do to get the effect that I wanted, but there always seems to be something that inches above it on the priority list.
I am still working full time at the jail and part time at home for SFS. Rylee and Mommy time is sporadic at best during the weekday evenings. Saturday is my true "mommy day" which includes everything from cleaning, working for SFS again, sleeping, laundry and taking time to hold Rylee before she is too big to want me to, etc etc. Sunday is 'pastor's wife' day wherein I do my best to take the nap that I so despised in my youth and yet have come to adore. Funny how things come full circle - now I know why mom and dad insisted that we at least stay in our rooms on Sunday afternoons so they could sleep. Sheesh!
I had some very disappointing news a couple weeks ago that has hung onto me. One of those things where I got my hopes up and I knew I shouldn't have which has only added to my 'blahness.' No amount of consoling has helped that situation.
As if I don't have enough to do, I thought perhaps a course in digital photography would be a fun hobby to pick up. That fell through also. Not like I don't have scrapbooking, quilting, writing, reading or any other hobbies I like to do, but ya know......
In the meantime I have started getting up early and jogging on the treadmill in an effort to regain that 'pre-mommy' look that so far as been elusive and seems to be mocking me. This week I am out of sync due to company staying the week. The Bakers are here doing our VBS and their helper stays at our house. Jogging on a treadmill and shaking the entire house (it's an old house) at 5:30 a.m. is not the way to make your guests feel welcome.
These are the ramblings of someone who should be asleep at this 'late' hour, but my mind is whirling - hard to sleep in while having a 'brain tornado.'
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Sorry about your 'brain tornado'! =) I'm not a Mommy yet and I still feel like life is a whirlwind at times. Hang in there and keep encouraged! Hope things start to turn around for you!
Wow, Regi! I understand where you are coming from!! Some times there are not enough hours in the day, and then some times there are too many and I can't wait to go to bed! There are so many things I thought I would do as a mommy that never happened - Addyson still does not have a nursery and she is 7 mos. old. In fact, she's using Clayton's crib set (eek - hopefully she'll never know she slept on blue/red train sheets). :-) I can't seem to get on top of somethings, but am just trying to take one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time. Hang in there!
yup. :S that's mommy-hood for ya. esp. working-mommy-hood. i guess alot of things just get whittled away until only the MOST important things remain. i daydream about how cute yosi's room could be too, but ultimately i'm just thankful she has a bed to sleep in. she won't remember much about how it looks as much as what happened when she was out of it.
yadah-yadah-yadah... i could say alot having been there and undoubtedly headed back there sometime in the near future...
you'll come thru with your head up. you're a great wife and mom! one day at a time... :)*hugs*
Yes, I am blessed to be married to you!
Sorry girl....I totally understand where you are coming from. I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to. Hang in there!
I'm there!
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